i WiSh He'S My NuMBeR oNe

Bismillahirahmannirrahim

And Peace be upon u people,

7 days. 

To be honest, this is such a long period of time. 

To be recover from this pain. 

In fact, I’m still not fully recover yet.

I'm still in hurt. 

There’s still a moment, when I suddently remember him, and my tears falling. 

Also the moment, when I feel like going back to my hometown.

Like I don’t care if I have to work at that restaurant as long as I can meet him everyday. 

And there’s also a moment, I feel like a newbie here.

Like this is the first time I come to Shah Alam. 

And I become so silent. 

I have no spirit to do anything. 

I only day dreaming. 

I have no appetite. 

I don’t even want to speak to anybody. 

I lost my thoughts and feelings. 

I feel like dying. 

And it’s all because I left my heart with him. 

Two days I’m here. In shah Alam. 

I have nobody to talk to. 

Then I realized that, I still have HIM, MY LORD. 

I took this a piece of my heart,

and I told HIM everything.

I asked HIM for everything.

And with all my might, I cried in front of HIM,

My countless of tears, 

HE wiped it away. 

Even I’m not the normal me anymore,

but the feeling of calm and peace I gained right now, 

made me realized that, 

maybe HE tested me with this feeling to make me awake

and notice that my heart is actually missed HIM so much

I 'leave' HIM for such a long time. 

Astaghfirullah al-azim. 

Forgive me LORD...

And thank you for not neglecting me~