I dOn'T kNoW (maybe-i--really-love-merepek-kot)

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT

I never thought that my two-weeks-students can be this 'cute.

Cute in my definition, begitulah. Penat perah otak dan keringat seharian kadang-kadang boleh hilang bila dok baca mesej daripada budak-budak ni. Err, kadang-kadang laa. Most of the time, I rather call my mom and merengek-rengek dekat beliau. Ataupun main angry bird and gelak sorang-sorang. (kalau tak faham kenapa main angry bird boleh gelak sorang-sorang sila tanya). Ataupun watch 'Victorious' or 'Tangled' and gelak sorang-sorang jugak. Ataupun dating dengan Alicia melalak dengan gigih. Ataupun go get Fish and land over him. Or maybe MAKAN? See the pipi?

Sorry for always merepek sorang-sorang macam tak ada benda lain nak update balik-balik nak cerita emotional balik-balik nak cerita pasal stress pressure tons of assignments macam orang lain tak stress tak pressure tak ada asigments bertan-tan kan? Tapi nak buat macam mana because I used to it. I mean, dah terbiasa luahkan perasaan dekat belog sejak kecil so sampai dah tua pun dia tak ada tempat lain nak mengadu melainkan belog. Merepek sangat part 'tak-ada-tempat-lain' tu. You know, I have One.

Ok, once again terimalah hakikat. I tell you the SUPER REAL story. Study master is SANGAT susah. Sangat susah I mean it's hard to reach the point of lecturer's satisfaction. They expect more and want more. Tak kiralah kau ada pengalaman ke tak ada pengalaman ke kau ada basic ke tak ada basic ke kau boleh ke tak boleh ke, you know, kalau diorang kata macam tu, maka macam tulah, kalau diorang nak begitu, maka cari yang begitulah. Somehow they want it then they don't want it. Get it? So basically, pursuing master right after you finish your degree is not really a good idea. Ambiklah nafas dulu. Unless kalau nak commit suicide and spare you social life I don't know maybe like forever. Habis kalau dah habis belajar tak kerja? Habis kalau dah kerja ada masa nak lepak dengan BFF dekat kedai mamak?

I miss my brother (tibetibe)

Sebenarnya bukanlah susah sangat. Saja letak ayat hiperbola nak bagi you guys know the real feeling of mine. Padahal faham-faham sendirilah belajar mana ada senang. Belajar mana ada shortcut. Kalau masa degree dulu lecturer senang je agree dengan research proposal. Tapi now kalau tak kena reject at least dua, tiga kali jangan mimpilah nak breath taking. Mati. Harus mati daulu then baru boleh hidup. Itupun spare nyawa dengan sangat tipis sebab once proposal dah approved maka haruslah come out dengan chapter one then chapter two then chapter three. Sigh. Ok. Cukuplah. Lepas ni nak promise dengan diri sendiri tak akan merungut about study lagi. InsyaAllah.

My life may not be going the way I planned. But I'm so sure that it is going exactly the way Allah SWT planned it. Oh dear, I really wish to have a stronger heart. Siapa boleh bagi sesi kaunseling percuma? Someone's feeling a bit down over here.

p/s: sometimes i'm not really sure about me myself. seriously, my thoughts scared me a lots...