ShE wOn'T GiVe Up!

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT

So early in the morning, I wake up and connecting my broadband, open Yahoo and G-Mail, checking my mail. Updating, deleting, replying some of them. Then I open my facebook, twitter and blog as well. The same routine everyday. Looking at the notifications, ignore some of them, tweeting and look at how many views since my previous post. That's my blog. Yang dah lama usang, yang lapuk dek hujan, yang lekang dek panas. Peribahasa baru sejak menjadi pelajar semula.

Student portal is my new trend. Checking new message at group forum which I never did as a part of learning. Dr. Teoh was a super cute lecturer. Despite her small physical appearance, her activeness in conducting class and online class made me feel so bad if I'm not involve. She is working yet still able to look over her little 'dummy' kids. Including me. So, moral of the story, Dr. Teoh merupakan lecturer yang paling active dan paling rajin bagi task tak kiralah dalam kelas or luar kelas dan oleh disebabkan lecturer rajin, pelajar takkan nak malas pulak. Maka disebabkan dah menjadi rajin, maka aku terpaksa mengabaikan belog seketika. Macam kejam je rasa hari ni dah 20 haribulan tapi update untuk bulan Mac baru dua je.

Kelas Dr. Teoh buatkan aku rasa sangat aktif. Searching all the time. Nama pun subjek 'Research Methodology' which an initial steps for my coming thesis. Percayalah, I can see how disaster I will be in coming weeks and months and years. Minggu kedua dah pandai pergi library which is the odd thing I ever did so far. Macam nak tergelak pun ada. Macam nak menangis pun ada. But I'm more than grateful since the class and the library is just a few minutes away by walking from my house. Or, should I tell you like this,

View from my house balcony. That M building basically is where my class held everyday. That's my faculty area. And INTEC library is just a slightly on the right.

Kalau tak reti bersyukur, kalau tak perform jugak untuk masters ni, I don't know what to say lah. Malu dengan diri sendiri sebab classmate lain boleh bekerja siang-siang and pergi kelas malam-malam and still manage to study hard padahal aku tak reti-reti nak study setekun dan segigih mereka walaupun tak bekerja hanya menunggu pukul 6 untuk ke kelas, memang aku ni layak ditembak dengan senapang gajah sahaja. Hidup menyusahkan mak bapak. Eh eh, melalut rupanya.

Oh ya. Kelas aku setiap hari pukul 6 sampai 9 malam. SETIAP HARI. Maknanya satu hari satu kelas. And basically, each class will have at least 2 times presentation. Lecturer wannabe kan. Haruslah acting like a lecturer all the times. Preparing teaching materials, studying, discussing, even the concepts is not so much different from degree but when the effort punch doubled or some might be tripled huwahaha air mata terus menitik tak berhenti. Masters study is tiring. Honestly, I almost give up. I almost quit. I almost grab whoever I saw on the streets and say 'would-you-marry-me?' hah, ingat lawak sangatlah tu.

Tapi, give up is definitely not an option for me. Whether I succeed or died. Itu sahaja jalan yang akan aku pilih. Bila fikir-fikirkan balik, rasa macam kelakar sangat. Starting from Foundation of Law, then switched to Degree in Language, tiba-tiba masters in Management and Leadership. Whoa, Allah sure is the best planner ever!

Tak tahu nak cerita pasal apa lagi. JJCM dah jadi limited season dah sekarang. Boleh kira berapa kali je boleh hangout dalam satu sem. Anyway, I always treasure the moments walaupun sekejap. Kalau nak KLMJ, bolehlah kelik past entries, sure ada yang menangis ni kang...haha. 

Lirik dia memang tak ada kena-mengena, tapi title dia ado! 

Kira halal la tu eh.

Ok, play time is over. Doakan saya kawan-kawan!