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BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT

Mengenangkan status relationship aku sekarang, honestly, aku sangat kagum dengan tahap kesabaran diri sendiri. It's like, bagilah aku meroyan berapa banyak kali pun, eventually aku akan end up pujuk diri sendiri, sabarlah Ocha, your relationship is expensive, your relationship is exclusive, your relationship is one of a kind, agaknya kalau aku cerita kronologi kisah aku dengan Encik Domoi, korang sure akan cakap relationship aku ni epic. I mean, bukanlah nak cakap epic sampai tahap Jack and Rose, Adam Hawa ke hape, just, yelah... aku yang merasa sendiri benda ni pun sebenarnya masih tak percaya apatah lagi korang yang tak tahu apa-apa ni haish.

So why aku kata expensive? Because it costs a lot. I mean literally expensive. Dulu rajin bergayut guna phone rumah sampaikan bil boleh cecah RM500 lebih tapi sekarang dah pandai saving siket laaa. Thanks to DG. Kami buddyz takkan terpisah because we are unlimited. Gitew.

 (promote jap)

Tu belum cerita pasal date, ok. Kau ingat relationship aku ni punya style, kalau nak dating boleh get ready for 10 minutes, tada, boyfriend kau terpacul depan rumah ke? No, baby. No. Mine is not like that. Kena cari hari apa dua-dua free. Kena rancang perjalanan. Kena tengok holiday schedule. Sometimes checking on online flight ticket dengan harapan ada ticket harga murah gilaaaaa!!! Kena booking boyfriend kau like sebulan awal. And always kena ada back up plan in case date cancel last minute ke, boyfriend kau tiba-tiba ada urgent ke, hape ke...





Yes. Buleh text, buleh call, buleh skype apa semua. (He don't have facebook account so, tak payah nak stalker sangat.) Tapi masing-masing kena booking time pulak laaa. Kadang-kadang, dia busy, aku free. Bila dia free, aku busy. Tambah-tambah bila dah kerja ni. Laaagilah. Bukan tu je, energy pun sama. Jawab call separuh sedar, texting sampai tertido, kadang-kadang sanggup set alarm semata-mata nak bangun tengah malam just to check him out. Benda-benda tu bagi aku biasa dah. That's why aku cakap relationship aku ni mahal. Serius mahal.

Mujur masing-masing dah agree dari awal, to always communicate to each other. At least wish him gemorning and genight. Even not everyday. And tak kiralah marah macam mana pun, penat macam mana pun, sibuk macam mana pun, lambat ke cepat ke, I will answer him, I will reply him. (except last two weeks which is memang aku tak boleh tahan marah sangat then I ignore him for a day and eventually aku jugak yang sakit which is padan muka aku), and all I can do is put myself on his place. Bayangkan kalau aku kat tempat dia then macam mana? Yelah, kalau tak buat macam tu, sampai bila pun tak faham situasi masing-masing. Habis dah dua-dua selfish, dua-dua tak nak compromise to each other. Then mulalah keluar tanda-tanda nak miscommunication (even sometimes it does happens).





And yes, it requires a lot of patient from both of us. Serius. Bukan nak cakap aku ni tough ke penyabar ke understanding ke apa. But knowing him, is one of the benda paling mencabar pernah aku buat. Kalau orang lain, aku rasa boleh end up masuk hospital mental dah. But I don't know how can I managed to get along with him. And samalah jugak, kalau aku ni jenis cepat nak emo, cepat nak meroyan, cepat nak menangis ke apa, then he will be like, sabar je dengar aku potpet-potpet kat telinga dia, rilek je pujuk aku balik, lepas tu minta maaf dengan penuh dramatik, terus aku cool down walaupun nak betul-betul cool tu makan masa jugak sebenarnya. But the thing is, he knows how to handle me. Pretty much.

And thank god, I have no trust issue with him. Sebab bila ada communication, then aku tahu dia buat apa, dia pergi mana, dia pergi dengan siapa, so, tak ada masalah nak percayakan dia. But I have problem with whatsapp sebab yelah kadang-kadang bila nampak dia online tapi dia tak tegur kau, ada possibility untuk kau fikir dia text perempuan lain ke, dia text perempuan lain ke ataupun text perempuan lain...hiks. Yes, I know exactly how it feels. Tipulah kalau tak jealous. Lagi-lagi bila boyfriend kau tergolong dalam kategori 'market'. Sampaikan kawan lelaki dekat office pun nak try dia, apatah lagi kawan perempuan, apatah lagi exes? Apatah lagi...??? Ok, but deep down, honestly, aku rasa secure dengan dia. Sebab... Tak tahulah. Hati aku rasa macam tu. So, macam tulah.

And because our relationship yang pelik dan epic ni ada end goal, I mean ada target which is semua orang pun kalau bercinta mesti la nak end up to settle down kan. So, it makes me strive hard, it makes me commit, it makes me take things seriously. Sekarang bukan masa nak main-main dengan perasaan orang. Bukan masa nak try and error. So I promise myself that I will fight for him and I will fight for us. Tudia orang kalau tengah bercinta tulis belog nampak tak cara dia? nampak? nampak? nampak?

So this is one of the way of how we surviving. And I'm counting days for us to meet in person. Like seriously, setakat ni belum pernah lagi date betul-betul. I mean, date yang betul-betul laaa. And also to officially introduce him in this blog (i-dont-know-when). Yang pastinya, sekarang tak boleh reveal lagi atas faktor-faktor keselamatan dan faktor-faktor kesihatan. I know tak ada kena mengena. Suka hatilah nak cakap apa. And sorry baby, I screenshot gambar you. Actually 'TER' screenshot. And you punya pose pulak boleh cenggitu hah, nasib la dapat publisiti daripada paparazi ni haaa...

Having a long-distance relationship, macam nilah.
So, sekian untuk hari ini. Terima kasih. 

Nak mandi bunga jap bagi jodoh cepat sikit.

Hikhik. Bye!