a fOoLiSh JuNiOr wHo HaRd tO FoRgEt HeR sENiOr

In the Name of Allah,

The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful,

Peace Be Upon Him Rasulullah SAW,

And peace be upon you too,

The theft of my heart,

For being someone who captured my eyes,

I am thankful to you,

For being someone who opened my heart,

I am thankful to you,

For being someone who did a great caliphs duty on Earth,

I really am thankful to you,

I can't effort to forget you, but I'll try,

As hard as I can,

As much as I could,

I can't help to not to stalk you, but I'll try to end it,

With 'unfriend' with you,

With forgo everything about you,

You know that I merely understand about this feeling,

I can't even figure out my own heart,

Static, statue, like a fool,

Though it's hurt, but I am still thankful,

I am still  grateful,

To have you as a person I loved,

And really,

I wish nothing between you and me,

We're not even friend, we're not even couple,

We're just a two people who knows each other,

And that's it...

Au revoir~

Dan lega. I said what I feel like to say. And at last, I hope this can be the end of my sickness. End of my hardness. End of the moment I've gone thru. Feeling like a crazy head. And I hurt a lot of people around me with my weird acting as well. I can't help it. But I also can't pretend. Thus, I'M SORRY. BIANE. GOMEN. LO SIENTO. Dan SAYA MINTA MAAF.

Yes. It was him, the one that I talked about (above). The senior who made me go insane these few weeks. I lost my words. Kenapalah dalam ramai-ramai manusia yang aku jumpa, I end up falling in love with him. Tapi tak apalah. Insane-insane pun, crazy-crazy pun, I end up enhance myself with something precious and worth. Sampaikan roomate dah join sekali pakai stoking pergi kelas. And she even told me her intention to wear tudung labuh. Alhamdulillah. That's the positive effect he brought!

But those who knows me, inside and out, they would say that I'm not that kind of person who can forget easily. Recent update, I heard that he already has someone in heart. I heard as well that girl is someone from 'utara'. And worst, I even heard that he's getting engaged. Pengsan. (Gimme 30 minutes breath taking) To be honest, those 'heard' hurt me so much. But somehow, it does make sense. We're like a pauper and prince. Macam fairy tale. Sounds funny but it is true. So there's no other way. I will keep holding on and have faith on Him. Because love is the hardest thing to predict on Earth.

p/s: semoga zaman pathetic aku khatam dengan cepat.