SpEaK nOw, sPeaK NoW, SpEaK nOw

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum wbt

Currently, I'm listening to "Speak Now" by Taylor Swift. (Loser sangat baru tahu the existence of this song). But it's so cute sampaikan terus google guitar chords and capai gitar dekat sofa belakang ni dan semestinyalah niat aku untuk membuat nota pragmatik tergendala walaupun that very important date just 3 days from now and I don't touch even a single topic of this grrr (sound effect) paper. 'Grrr' tu maksud dia 'tough' laa. So, dah tahu paper susah lagi boleh selamba main gitar. Tahu tak tadi mummy I punya mengamuk macam mana?

"Ni dah last paper jangan nak main-main"

"Empat tahun kau belajar bersangkak-sangkak yang last ni buat betul-betul."

"Mak tak nak kau sangkut ke, repeat ke apa ke."

Hish mak ni. Nauzubillah tau jangan dimintak-mintak repeat tu. Makin nak habis ni makin scary tau mummy I punya perangai. Tang mana nak buat nota, tang mana nak update blog tang mana nak main gitar. Eh eh, but I tell you what, lagu ni serius comel gila. Bayangkan kalau aku nyanyi dekat someone yang aku suka. Terjah lelaki tu masa dia nak salam tok kadi.

"Jangan lafazkan akad nikah tu pleaseeeee!!!"

Selamba je nak musnahkan majlis kahwin orang. Mesti dramatic habis sebab the song's story line itself dah macam a cute fairy tale dah tau. Wish I have that awesome voice as Taylor Swift (mimpidisianghari). Tak apa. Aku feeling dengan Alicia sorang je. Lantaklah suara ke sungai ke, ke laut ke, ke gaung ke kan.

Oh ya, hi readers. Rasa macam lama tak update blog padahal baru berapa hari. And I've been 3 days at home. Ralat sangat duduk Shah Alam lama-lama. Macam alergik pulak rasa. Bukan homesick. It's just because that I don't want others to feel uncomfortable with me. Menyusahkan orang is something that I really hate to do the most. Mummy thought me that. Be independent. Be a tough girl. Orang tak akan pedulikan kita bila kita susah. They smile. They clap their hands. Kalau ada yang betul-betul care pun, it's REALLY hard to find. Rarely exists. Tapi mummy cakap kita jangan marah dekat diorang. Sebab diorang yang jadikan kita kuat. So be thankful.

"Thank you guys for making me strong." 

(bow 90 degrees)

And as for my latest updates, tak tahulah nak cakap macam mana. I really am regret with a lot of things happened recently sampai kadang-kadang syaitonirrojim tu bermaharajalela sangat menghasut you know it can give me the feeling of benci yang tak terhingga dekat someone yang I tak sampai hati nak state dekat sini. Dan tak tergamak. Dan tak sanggup. Dan tak sudi pun nak taip nama dia. Kalau terasa nasiblah. I pun malas dah nak jadi orang positif. Positive towards that stupid d*m* b***h anymore! Sebab Allah itu adil. What you give, you get back.

A.N.Y.W.A.Y.

My spirit is not that down to hell. Macam mati laki punya gaya nak beriya sangat emotinal kenapa kan? Tadi kata strong. Tough. Ahli bina badan. Eh? Ok lah. Nak sambung buat nota balik. To BFF yang sedang membaca, I got another dilemma. Tapi I tak boleh state dekat sini. So kalau you guys tak busy, let me know and I'm going to catch you up. Nak buat sinetron samarinda heart to heart. 

Eh, da pandai main gitar lagu speak now laaa ^_^